arttistic's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- first time I wrote something substantial in the entry but somehow the stupid mouse decided to went loco and deleted all the stuff I wrote. So, damn it...lantak laa... That entry made me sad somehow, so Ive decided to write something else now. You know, I feel like jotting down something tonite. I'm still not sure if I made a mistake when I showed up at the dinner in Concorde 2 nights ago. Some warnings from my partner on that evening gave a bad start to the whole situations. He had been right, now that I know. I was still contemplating if i should ever go that night when my boss called me up to confirm the reservations that I made in Melting Pot. I gave in and re-routing my way to KL in that heavy traffic jam. You see, we have to entertain these clients and JV partners from Brunei. Since I have been the very focal point so far, it's a sin for not attending the dinner. My JV partners, always took care the best everytime I was in Brunei (which like twice everymonth). So it was a favor to return. Little that I knew the event that was about to happen afterwards. **I n t e r v a l** I met Mr Lau (mookie is smiling I know :) heh) some months back when he came to the office to discuss on some business arrangement with me and the boss. Seriously, before he shook my hand and handed me his namecard, I mistook him as a 25-year-old chinese trainee. What shocked me then was, he was actually this Executive Director made from heaven. As I was astoundingly pondered on how 30 something guy like him happened to look so young, I deliberately not forgetting the fact from my senses that this guy was so attractive and cute you could almost eat him. I bumped on him few times during my many many visits to Brunei and exchanged smiles. It went flat and ended just like that. **** It started off when Jaa said saomething about how cute Lau was when the client audited us that morning. I went through this almost horrible safety audit by Brunei Shell Petroleum that morning , it exhausted me. As I was about to proceed for lunch I greeted Lau and KSC and started talking business bla bla bla..some jokes were shared.. we laughed and he softly touched my arms. I went *blink* wtf? What was that? Ok.. that may be a gesture. I could see his joy on getting this job. Fineeee..that's fair enough. So that night before dinner, he was trying to make conversation with me, I was so shy shy cat I couldnt stop smiling and very quiet. Others were hitting on dirty jokes and still I smiled irritatingly. I knew I wont be able to get a good sitting position at dinner as I was less important that night *sigh* So takdela nak duduk depan mamat tu. So the boring dinner went on and aha! I caught him staring at me....many times! No jokes! Muahahaha! Ok, I am not attractive and those time when I found men staring at me was either there's something wrong with me or they are blindfolded(?). And.. when they were interesed at looking at my boobs, just to point a few. Allrite, maybe I was 'perasan' because I was a bit smitten by him, so I kept the fingers crossed. I was innocent...so innocent I went.."Eh eh, bestnyerr" when Fuad said to join them for karaoke session. I've always loved karaoke and perhaps Fuad was innocent too. Lau had suggested earlier that I go with him. :) I've always been the only girl in the group. Coming from Fuad I know there was nothing I had to worry. We parked the car at Marriot where Lau was staying. There were 10 of us initially and as I was escorted to the Superstar KTV a bit later than the other guys, little did I know what was going on. Wondered a bit why the place was classy as I was ushered by beautiful ladies in red, it didnt give room to think because I had this shock of the centuries when GROs were flocking by the side of the men seductively. I stopped a minute. Felt my face dropped and trapped like a little bird. The smell of liqours were strong enough to make me dizzy. I had a hard time choosing my seat because I felt there was no room for me and unwelcomed. Gone were the images of rooms like Red Box or theplace in Yow Chuan where we kids used to hit for karaoke sessions. In return I was in this a room classy enough for a minister complete with with the posh sofas. I went red instantly. I wasnt properly dressed. Was still in my formal office suit. There was this shortness of breath for a while when I fought with the insurmountable smell of whisky around me. "What the fuck am I doing here?" I tought I wanted to go back Fuad went panic because he knew I was uncomfortable. He suggested that we take a taxi. But to honor my host that night, I said to wait atleast the boys have sang few songs. To make matter worse, nobody wanted to start singing. I rue the time when I said yes to the invitation. I learn something about men I am not about to say here that night. I managed to see the indecent acts I would never have thought people like that would do. Jay and Rizal were like thirsty dogs on Sahara. KSC, the old man looked younger that night. A Haji went panic as I stared at him. There were at least 2 GMs and MDs of some companies there. I knew afterwards from Fuad, it was them who felt uncomfortable with my presence. The GROs were kids barely 20 trapped in an older look. I talked with few of them feeling like a reporter and couldnt shun the fact from my head of how young they were. I pitied them. But Lau...as though sensing the incomfort in me became my saviour. He ditched those GROs and sat closely next to me. I think he didnt even sit with those girls. He softly spoke to me and tried to lure me to sing with him. I refused politely. We talked..talked and talked. I lost my focus on anything but him. He was sweet enough to tell me his background and later I found out that he is actually 38 years old. That old? It cant be. And he doesnt really drink..warghh..really?? Ok..he has allergies to alcohol and turn him alobster if he drinks. I couldnt believe this is the same Lau I met in the office. He has this quiet look that reminds me of my partner, those lush lips...ok..my mind just wandered far. I bid them goodnight as the boys got heater and took the dance floor and as promised by Fuad, he escorted me home. Lau nearly begged me to stay till 1 am but I said I had to be in the office early in the morning. I wanted to stay and chat really..but in a different place. But I just kept to myself. Had I say "Can I kiss you good night?" I wonder how he would look like. Hehe.. I swear I'll never go to that place ever again. I had series of good puking down to the toilet bowl when I reached home thinking of the boys. I should really thank Lau for saving my night and ignored what really happened. Too bad his mobile digits were not printed on when I came home rummaging my name cards trying to find his. My partner is gonna kill me if he knows...oh God.. 10:55 p.m. - 2004-05-22 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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